//23 but looks 17// Photographer// World Traveler// Ocean Lover// Adventurer //
This is a blog about my life and about traveling. My goal is to inspire others to travel to expand their way of thinking.
It just sort of dawned on me why I’ve been feeling really off lately. It’s almost like an identity crisis without a better way of saying it. If you guys would describe me how I was in San Diego or even abroad.. for example if you were to just free associate… I’m not a lot of those things in the bay area… Things that would define me such as being a social butterfly, a beach lover, a busy body, adventurer, or whatever. All those things.. I am NOT in the bay area and I think that’s what’s been bothering me so much. If I’m not those things anymore then what am I and what defines me? The rules have changed.
The people here that know me too have expectations of how I was before I left for college or even before high school and there’s a contradiction to how I used to be and what I am now. Because there’s this contradiction I’m starting to get confused. I’m afraid I’m slowly forgetting who I was because my surroundings around here are molding me into something else that I’m not. I’m trying to cling on to what I know is me while the world around me tells me that I’m something else. At the same time, I’m being forced to change to adapt to my new life since it’s necessary but I’m hesitant.
I wonder if that made any sense..
